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He is sleeping soundly. I just came back from the lab. I was scared of the lightning on the way back home. It seemed so clear to me. I was thinking it might be good to be hit by the lightning. It can be a relief. Will he be extremely sad if it happened? I do not know why I have so many strange thoughts. He just does not care that I slept in the living room. I cannot fall asleep but he obviously can. If there is a way to quantify the love, does he love me more than I love him? I seem to be isolated here. Molly is sleeping with him. Only stuffed animals are here with me. Well, at least that is a comfort. I was thinking about what would happen if I did break up with him, he has family here to comfort him. What can I get? I know he loves me, but is that in a right way? Maybe I need to change myself, maybe. It is a new month now. I have a lot to do. I need to care about myself first. Be selfish sometime.